What if one of your greatest blessings is on the other side of your fear? Year 2018 was the year that God told me He would be testing my faith. FAITH is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen (Hebrews 11:1)! HE. WAS. NOT. KIDDING. that entire year!!!! If I told you that I was 100% fearless before getting married I would be lying to you. Of course I was ready, but 100% fearless? Nah! My husband and I did all of our preparations that we needed to do, which honestly put us WELL ahead of the game than what we would have been. However, I was still dealing with fear a couple months before the wedding date...WHY???? Because my personality type "CS" likes to know all the moves before I make them. I like to have everything mapped out before I arrive! Look, you can't learn how to SWIM without getting in the WATER!!! FAITH never means GO when you are 100%! FAITH is GOING without being 100!!! FAITH is GOING without fully knowing!
"What Did I Get Myself Into" On July 16th, 2018, my husband and I were on a cruise ship heading to the Bahamas for our honeymoon the day after our wedding day & it felt literally like a dream!!! Soon after we took off I started to feel the ship move a bit toooo much for my liking, and I got sea sick. The first thought that came to my head was "What did I get myself into"?? Would I be sea sick this whole time??? But, a couple hours later I began to feel much better. I don't know if it was because the ship became more steady or I adjusted to the feeling of the ship moving, or both. Listen, transitioning into marriage is the exaaact same way. I could not believe I was actually MARRIED, it felt like a dream!!! I was not visiting the uncharted territory of marriage, I made my home there. When the movement of the marriage made me feel a bit unsteady and frustrated, I remember thinking at that time "What did I get myself into??" In spite of the movement,